Im daily coming to the realization that business manager of a non-profit has proved to not be a stress-free life style. I am learning and growing so much but everyday is not smiles and flowers. I really tend to internalize daily situations and set goals that create pressure for me, and it is unknown to anyone else. This doesnt always come out in kind, gentle, or loving actions. Currently a destressing factor for me, among my internalized pressure, is information that has spoken directly to the core of me as a Chrisitian.
'Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.'
If one acutally breaks these words down, it seems rather impossible to be this self-less. The impossible goal is freeing, all I can do is everyday work a little bit to be less selfish, and self-centered. Giving may be the only way to be living in a worthwhile manner.
